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当你身边的人有事，才醒觉生命的可贵，所以，刘建乐，别再浪费氧气了。。。

28/10/2010

今天早上，一上完Tutorial就跑去Lab做MicroP Project了，一切得从零开始，其实之前已经有进展了，就不懂为什么现在出了问题，就不断一直在试，试到下午三点了，什么也做不到，耐心计表简直冲上了顶点，我决定暂停了，做了一个星期，明明之前已经做到的，现在做不到，下个星期就要交了，周末Lab又没开，明天又太多课，真是迷惘且无助，根本没人能帮得了我，好烦。。。还没吃午餐，就驾车去打包Mcdonald。。。还买了炸香蕉和Curry Puff，今天的Mcdonald特别好吃，我咬着薯条看咏祥打code，我一点也不享受，我的舌头尝到美味的薯条，但却给不了我一丝的快感，也许这就是吃龙肉都没味吧。。。其实刚才驾着车出去时，我真的好想发脾气了，但是我拼命地忍住，因为我知道驾车要保持冷静。。。可是内心了怒火却找不到发泄的洞口，一直在我心里打滚。。。真是的。。。后来我想大概六点多才做到了第一步，虽然成功了，但我的心情却没变好。。。回到房间开电脑上网，登入msn和facebook，好希望你在线上，不久你真的上线了，还主动找我谈天，可是我还在低落中，我看得出你今天心情很好，我都隔了一阵子才回你，不久，你走开了，不知是否是生气了。。。对不起，今天实在是没心情，也许我根本不应该上线，等。。。见你没回我，我就下线了。。。躺在床上。。。发呆。。。~~~~~不久，昏昏入睡了，却被手机铃声吵醒，不知哪个笨蛋打过来，接了又盖掉。。。既然都醒了，再上线吧，你下线了。。。咳。。。今天不是我的天。。。现在怒火渐渐熄灭了，才有心情在这里写blog。。。有时在想，我真是一个很会委屈自己的人，什么事都选择忍耐，我的心是肉做的，并不能忍人所不能忍，有一天一定会爆炸，我想我那时应该一命鸣呼了。。。我并不会发泄我的情绪，这样活着真辛苦，每次都在独自地难过着，直到心中的压抑慢慢消散。。。这是一个很笨的方法。。。但我依然持续着。。。对不起，对你忽冷忽热。。。我会尽量改掉，不过，也可能是我想太多了，你根本不在意。。。咳。。。算了，还有讨人厌的数学等着我去陪伴。。。加油努力吧。。。^^V

25/10/2010

yeah~
Do you know why I am happy?
Haha...ok la...dun be angry...
I will tell you for sure~~~
Firstly, i attended the meeting of robotic. Finally it had been confirmed.
I was quite worry about it before. Now, everything is fine. ^^
How about the second? I'm very hardworking today because I'm doing my BBI SDL now.
I thought I will spend whole day for those meaningless activity like facebooking, dotaing or sleeping. Wait!!! Maybe sleeping is not, when you feel tired must rest right? So nothing goes wrong for sleeping, haha...
And then, I'm having nice moment by chatting with Chean San.
I appreciate that I can keep contact with my NS friends.
It is because there are few friends I know during NS. It's really can be count by my fingers. Haha...:)
Oh ya, I couldn't forgot to talk about my agriculture. At the afternoon i stayed in class to study the agriculture. It's very boring and make I nearly fall in sleep. Actually I had a short nap during my study :P
Then, the test is tough for me. I have no idea and not really know what i wrote. It's quite lousy feel.
Hmm...two assignments and microprocessor project are waiting for me. Tomorrow will be a busy day. Anyway, I will face it by smiling :) because you are always there.

泪

偷偷掉了一滴泪，迅速地擦掉，
没有人看到，也不想让人知道，
那是一滴痴情泪，你永远不会知道。

眼泪是天使身上的钻石，

所以不要让它轻易落下。

你说的这么一句话，
我心房被敲了一下，
这么轻轻地敲一下，
激起我心中的涟漪。

21/10/2010

今天的我本来还蛮高兴的，

但现实是残酷的，

刚刚听到我最不想听的一句话，

真的很伤人，

虽然我都知道，也许现在，是时候面对了。。。:(

17/10/2010

最近比较忙，考试，assignment，让人喘不过气来，（现在还是得忙）
当然，我还花很多时间facebooking和玩电脑，
最近有去游泳，虽然有进展，但还是得努力的，
参加了新春晚会和soccer robot活动，
soccer robot的集会在明天，
而新春晚会刚刚过了，
面试时，真的是，有点难忘。。。:(
当然，难忘的原因是可悲的。。。
第一，面试等了很久，
第二，ah beng打翻我的汽水，
第三，最惨的，ah beng当众穿我煲，
让我解释一下，
本来想免得麻烦，就在面试时说我没交通，
才说不久，他就跑来问我拿车钥匙。。。真是的。。。
害我差点下不到台。。。
刚刚的新春集会，可有够废的，
要唱歌就算了，干嘛要加动作，明知我的四肢不发达，当然头脑也相当简单。。。哈哈
到一半，ah beng带头走人，回到宿舍，我还是决定回去吧
毕竟我觉得这样走了不太好，我也不知我是否做得对。。。
回到去，（喝了茶后）刚刚进入第二个活动。。。哇，时间刚刚好
自我介绍，出奇的，今年的新生好热情，好吧，我承认是我冷漠。。。
然后就玩些游戏拍拍照，完了。。。
我是不介意假期留下来，当然我也还不懂我的两个活动会不会相撞。。。
最重要的，我怕我没时间组模型。。。我亲爱的高达。。。

David Archuleta - My Kind Of Perfect

I was thinkin' about ya
I drew a little picture
But some things you can't put on paper
Like ya like shooting stars
Or write songs on guitar
Got more things to do than stare at a mirror

And I know I know,
She's gotta be out there, out there
I know, I know, she's gotta be

Maybe I'm wrong maybe I'm right
Maybe I'll just let you walk by
What can I say, maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one, is it today
Will I turn the corner, see my future
In a beautiful face
Maybe

She's anything but typical
A sweet suprise
No matter what she's looking at the brightside
It's gonna be worth it
Cos that's what love it's
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect!

And I know, I know, she's gotta be out there, out there
I know I know, she's gotta be.
Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right, maybe I just let you walk by
What can I say, maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one, is it today
Will I turn the corner, see my future, in a beautiful face
Maybe

They say, give it time, give it time and it will fall in line
But I keep wondering how and when and why I haven't met you...

But maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right

Ooohhhhh
Is she the one is it today
Will I turn the corner
See my future, in a beautiful face

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right
Maybe I just let you walk by
What can I say
Maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one, is it today
Will I turn the corner, see my future
In a beautiful face
Maybe ohh maybe yeah

I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect.

我是被逼的。。。

虽然我认识你很久了，
但我总选择远远地望着你，
别说我变态，只能说我懦弱，
我心里很清楚，只要我接近你，你一定会避开我，
在我眼里，你是静止的，
一天在我刚好拟好一张草稿时，我看见了你，
一股莫名的勇气涌上心头，我决定坦然去面对，
我把草稿卷起来，慢慢地往你的方向迈进，
心跳加速，心好像要从胸口跳出来一样，
我紧张地似乎快把手中的草稿给捏烂，
突然“啪”一声，你挂了。。。
别奇怪，是我亲手送你上路的，
蟑螂，去死吧。。。
竟然闯进我的房间（K10 圣地），
实在是死不足惜，
天堂有路你不走， 地狱无门自来投。